Shiiloe (shiiloe) wrote in total_losers,

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I figure I probably should do a little introduction post on myself. I guess I’ll start with my weight history. Well..not all of it, but the important stuff. I’m 5’7” ish…maybe a tad taller, and I currently weight about 168, my highest weight being 286. Yes, that’s not a typo. I actually weighed 286. That was when I decided it was time to seek help from a nutritionist. We went thru my dieting history, and discussed the times when my major weight gain occurred and she came to the conclusion that I was among a small group of people that can’t possibly lose weight from diet and exercise because of a physiological problem, and pretty much my only option would be to have gastric bypass. I struggled with the idea of surgery for well over a year, and decided that if I was going to have any sort of decent life with my 4 yr old, being able to play and keep up with him, it was really my only option. In addition to that, diabetes runs in my family and I was dangerously close to getting it. So, on July 11th, 2002, I had gastric bypass. It was terrifying, but definitely worth it in the long run. I’m still not skinny by any stretch of the imagination and I have a long way to go, but I’m definitely headed in the right direction. So now, losing weight isn’t as much the issue with me anymore because I pretty much lose it without really thinking about it anymore (actually, that’s not quite true. I still have to watch what I eat, but it’s much easier to do that when feel nauseous if you eat too much)…exercising is where I need to motivate myself. After weighing 286 lbs and losing nearly 120 lbs, you can imagine that toning is a necessity at this point. I get all gung-ho over some new exercise I wanna try and I do it once and think to myself ‘why on earth would anyone put themselves thru this’. Crappy attitude, I know but I also know that I eventually find an exercise that I can actually somewhat enjoy if I keep looking. Unfortunately, in the meantime, I’m sitting here on my ass at the computer and my keyboard gets far more exercise than any of my muscles ever get. I have a Gazelle freestyle machine thingy which I actually do like doing but like every other machine I’ve ever purchased, it’s gather dust in my exercise room. Yes, I have an entire room dedicated to exercise machines that I don’t use. I have a Gazelle, a Universal, a Total Gym, a treadmill, and free-weights. And none of them get used. I think that mentally I’m closer to being in the place where I’m ready to take that final step to motivation, but I don’t know what will make it click. Hopefully this group will be the catalyst :) that you are all bored from that entirely too long of a post, I guess I’ll make an exercise cd :P


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